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Got to go to work at 5:40 am

I hate morning shifts. I took my medicine to be in bed by 11 pm. I don't think it's going to work. I have to stay up.

This isn't working out. But I'll be there. I can overcome the tiredness, I think. I don't usually. Usually I put my feet up and fall asleep. It's because I'm at home. I feel perfectly full of energy and start to rest, and then I fall asleep. There's been a battle against good and evil with me sleeping. I used to stay up for 5 days at a time on average. I've gone from terminal insomnia to highly disciplined sleep. I've gotten to the point now that I want to fall asleep on demand and wake up on demand. That's what you need to do. You go to sleep when you want and you wake up when you want. It sounds like I'm being irresponsible. No, we're all soldiers in the light of sleep. Soldiers might only get 2 hours sleep. They may get no sleep for 2 weeks. Patton stayed up for 7 days straight to fight the battle of the bulge. You need to have control over it.

Most people do have control over it. But most people do have problems sleeping. I was thinking about how I felt like shit as a teenager. But it didn't bother me. I never had any suicide plans. I think that's how it goes. You feel shitty, but it doesn't matter. What I mean is that the natural born discipline we have doesn't acknowledge suffering. When I got sick I started to pay attention to how I feel.

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